dan masih tentang air mata yang berisi ribuan sesal dan kenapa, yang masih membuatku terheran-heran.
terkadang seiring berjalan roda kehidupan, bersama berlalunya hari dan berbagai momen pahit manis, terjadi lah berbagai perubahan yang tak terelakkan. for one thing that constantly happen in life is the change itself. just hoping that the change will bring no negative impact thoroughly to my present life.
and hope is just blown by the breezing wind. gone away.
and this is the part where i still can't understand why.....
pernahkah qta membayangkan, seseorang yang dalam keseharian bisa disebut sebagai karib kita, cukup dekat dengan kita, ternyata menegatifkan pandangannya tentang kita hanya karena adanya PERUBAHAN. padahal perubahan itu pun tak membawa dampak negatif pada hidup siapapun, hanya perubahan biasa, come and go. ordinary pattern of life.
now i'm glassing myself.. look at myself.. in every single possibilities of hurting him/her (can't mention the gender)
aku pernah bertanya padanya, tentang banyak hal yang menarik minat kami berdua. kami pun membagi tawa. but now, it's shocking me enough to see the fact.
aku adalah seseorang yang selalu ingin maju, tidak stagnan, apakah salah jika aku memiliki kemauan untuk selalu berkembang?
i'm sorry if it's wrong for yo... so sorry...
i'm sorry if it's wrong for you.........................................
tears
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ketika perubahan terjadi (secara) mendadak, kenapa akhirnya hanya keburukan-keburukanku saja yang terlihat jelas?
suatu pertanyaan yang sekarang terngiang-ngiang di kepalaku.
why? why?
tears... as always defined as sadness, and i do feel it now..
tears drop.. but not a physical drop, psychologically drop in the deepest part of my heart. i often questioned why do THEY just see my negative view when everything's not happening as they plan? it's me the one who is guilty for their unwillingness to accept reality. and it's me who have to pay all undemanded changes.
oh Gosh, this is life, i know.. it supposed to be easy for me to recognize all negative attacks in front of me.. and i have to make a great shelter to protect my self from a greater hollow.. sorrow..
these tears inside just show me that i'm only an ordinary being.. whatever, i need God to relieve this pain..
if i want, i'll hate everybody who backstabbing, gossiping, or talking negative 'bout me. i can mock them back, or backstab them back, but what for? it'll make no difference between me (the educated one) and them (the uneducated ones).
i don't wanna hate someone. cuz life of a hater is just the life of the pitiest creature on earth.. so, why hating? :)
tears.... please making friend with me...
please be cooperative and just drop when i'm already engaged to a firm principle of mine, to stand up and be tough!
:))
good bye.....
sebentar lagi akan berpisah dengan laptop n modem tercintaku...
take care ya laptop.. jangan rewel pake hang2 segala..
modem juga.. baik2 saja ya.. jangan suka DC gag jelas..
ok.. i'll miss you soooooooooooooooo much
