i happened to see my angel

'puisi' ini aku post di Fs uda lama, but, again, someone complimented by saying "good words".. jadilah aku semangat memasukkan lagi di blog ini

happy reading


i happened to see a miracle,,
i happened to see an angel..an angel of the past..
yet the angel won’t see me..it makes no difference to my hopes..my dreams..
yet it’s been 40 days my heart stop beating the rhyme of love..
but it has nothing to do with my hopes…my hopes are everlasting..
it was wednesday, 26 december 2007..
it was the day i met my miracle,,though just for a while,,though the miracle didn’t give a second glance to me..but it was a wonderful minutes of my life
my heart gets better…
my heart beats againthe rhyme gets harder…
faster…l
ouder…
but it’s just for a while…
and really it makes no difference to my life…
even it build me up…i happened to see my angel…
my angel is my miraclemy miracle is my angel
just came across in my eyes….
but it was more than anything in the whole world!!
can i touch my miracle?it flies so high in the sky
can i hold my angel?
it’s just too mesmerize to hold
i can’t bear…………………………………………….
i wanna shout out loudshout my wound inside my pain…then my miracle came…
just yesterday..in my simple day…ordinary day..then it became an amazing day…
can i have a chance to see my miracle…my angel..just once more time..before i go far away…leaving my dream island..leaving my imagination…and move on..go to the reality in front of me.
i’m tired……………………………………………………………………………..

maNic morNing (oLd enTry to re-reaD)

i've posted this writing last year in Fs,, and someone complimented my writing talent.. (????).. so i publish it here, then i want to know your opinion bout it (is it true that i have writing talent??)

dimulai dari a week ago..
dunno what exactly has happenned to ME!!
absolutely have no idea….

starting from one week ago, i have no good mood to do anything.. is it because i’m exhausted?? well, i’m not sure and i dont really think so.i become so lazy. in the morning, actually i wake up at 5 but then i sleep again and then get up at 6. then, as you can predict, i get manic morning. such living in hell. i take a bath in a hurry. get dressed, prepare the things i need for the whole day also in a hurry!!dan sudah bukan keanehan juga kalo pada akhirnya aku tiba di sekolah di detik-detik terakhir menjelang masuk!kalo dulu,,pas awal2 masuk,sewaktu check-clock jam yang tercetak di kartu absensi is at around 6.30..but now,,it’s the opposite..jam check-clock slalu menunjukkan jam 6.43 or 6.44,,just 2 or 3 minutes before the red mark appears!!

besides,,i become so lazy in my life. jadi males berangkat ngelesi privat. for instance is today. last meeting, i’d changed the schedule of the private course. it should be on wednesday but i changed into TODAY. and what happen is I FEEL SO LAZY TO GIVE LESSON so i’ve told my students that this week’s meeting is postponed until next week. what a lazy teacher!sebenarnya i’m not proud of my condition. it’s embarassing indeed. but it seems i lose my light again…pfiuh…masih ada lagi ‘kemalasan’ku yang lain…males ngerjain skripsi..maybe it’s a classic story..being so lazy in doing thesis is normal (self-defence!!)karena pressumption itu, i almost never touch my thesis lately (almost one week). i’m too busy. really!! i ahve to go work in the morning until afternoon then i must teach private course until night. setelah itu, ngaji PPM. really feel the athmosphere of my room is at around 9 p.m

when i have those terrific days,,what else i can do beside taking rest, sleeping, or at least doing nothing special such as watching muvi or listenig to music. t’s such a refreshing time for me and i do need that.
maybe this is still “new” for me and i still need “more” time to adapt with this new life ^^
lately, i admit that i’m being so strange, i’m so lazy and i don’t have any purposes of life.but i have to “WAKE UP”,,rite?
any suggestion?

First siTe in Indonesia to successfully screen a paTienT ^^

this is my posting in Fs..

5 feb 09

Today I’ve found something miserable about my life : that I have no spare time for my own activity.. I have almost 0 minute to do something that has no relation with working matters or future matters. No doubt!! When I checked the scale of my workaholic madness, I was not shocked to see the result. Well, as it can predicted, the result : “hamper terjerumus dalam lubang kesuper sibukkan”.. =P

So, if my activities now can be mentioned as workaholic craziness, then, what will it be in the next month, when I have to enter classes for my master degree?? (maybe I should ‘sigh’ all over time but it won’t overcome my overload tasks,, it’s just be the barrier to keep my spirit..

In last two days, my life was hectic, cuz I had totally new jobs to handle and accomplish. The new research I handle now arrived in the screening step, which demands me to get busy with anything related to screening process.

Mulai dari contact pasien, mastiin jadwal dokter untuk menandatangani ICF & BILAG assessment, daftarin pasien untuk jadi pasien penelitian, mastikan setiap proses ga ada yg terlewat mpe nenteng2 kantong urin 24 jam dari ruang endoskopi ke Lab sentral =P
But, it’s fun anyway.. it’s true.. it’s fun!! Even if I can be honest, I do love this job. Bisa ketemu banyak orang-orang baru, dapat ilmu baru, pengalaman baru dan bikin aku lebih mensyukuri hidup.

And fortunately, my hectic days was appreciated and not in vain because my site for the research (RSSA) was the first site in Indonesia to screen patient, isn’t great? It makes me proud, and of course all study team (doctors, nurses, and lab analysts) also proud of this success =)

Sore ini aku baru aja nyelesaikan tugas2ku.
Besok masih ada other jobs to do,, can I?
Of course I can!!! =))
I’m sure I can!!!

Malang, 5 Feb 09
15:25