balada (menjelang peresmian) seorang pengangguran terselubung

sebenarnya hari ini diriku belum resmi jadi "pengangguran terselubung" (kan sambil S2, jadi bukan bener2 pengangguran, mskpn nganggur :P).. but the feeling of being unemployment is already hanging and shouting out in my dearest mind. dan malas bekerja menjadi pemakluman.. haha.. alasan aja!!
so, aku harus berjuang untuk sesuatu hal dan it takes longer time. so, gimana kalo bolos kerja?????
niat untuk membolos kerja itu terbersit sejak hari sebelumnya (senin kemarin, sekarang selasa, just to inform). dimulai dengan percakapan ringan at lunch time dengan rekan kerja mengenai prosedur pembuatan suatu dokumen (bisa dibilang begitu) dan sudah jadi sangat lumrah kalo birokrasi di indonesia tuh mbyuleettt gag jelas.. haha.. maaf ya negaraku, this is true anyway. so i decided to take one day off, to finish that forkin' document in "easier" way, ehm ehm, not in a negative way. just find another alternative to solve my problem (aha??)
and here i am today, enjoying my off day, starting with stay late until early morning (for about 4a.m). but that was the positive one cuz i spent all nite long by googling.. googling.. and googling.. for the sake of what so called future..(wow!)
yeeeaahh... until finally i started yawning a lil bit and more, i just realize it was already 2.30 a.m and okay i think it's better to have "sahur" directly (besok mau puasa gitu guys.. bertobat.. kiamat sudah dekat.. :D)
after having sahur, i take subuh pray and it felt i was sleepy (at last! thanks God!). but this is me whom can't sleep long. jam 7 teng pun diriku sudah terbangun. membuka beberapa sms dan membalasnya. kemudian menelpon bos untuk ijin (excuse : gag enak badan --> fact : a bit unwell but still able to work :P)
setelah ngulet2 secukupnya, at 8 i got up n ready for today :)
dan berangkatlah diriku pagi ini untuk berurusan dengan birokrasi (yang ternyata di tempat alternatif ini begitu simpel dan hangat!!, tak seperti di tempat kerjaku - sebagai perbandingan aja).
kegiatan calon pengangguran inipun berlanjut ke bank.. stationary store dan ke photo studio.. tuh kan, meskipun ijin kerja, aku tetap sibuk, rite?? cuz i injected hyperactive serum into my body and this is me, can't stop doing something.
dan ketika selamat tiba di rumah, mulai terpikir bagiku untuk menajalani hari seprti apa di hari2 awal pengangguranku next week. serem tapi menantang..
here they are the to do list in my early unemployment days :

..going to Surabaya (ssssttttt....)
..going to campus to meet my beloved lecturers & legalizing documents (as always)
..going to post office to post the proposal of life
..starting to ask friends of mine (ya tentunya minta dikasih kerjaan or projek sana sini..)
..finishing my ass-ignment-hole yang makin deket gile sm hari H hand in.. (gini2.. aku anak kuliahan lho.. mskpn gag meyakinkan bgt)

see.... konsep pengangguran yang sharian hanya bermalas-malasan tidak berlaku buatku.. hey, aku memang belum resmi juga jadi penganggurannya.. let's see if there's (or there are) miracle (or miracles) along this week.. hope to see it.. *ngareepp*



this is me.. and the way i choose to life on.. ketika aku memutuskan mengambil langkah ini, pro kontra berdatangan. sempat bimbang. but i know that this supposed to be the best way i can be.. the best thing i can do.. so far..

p.s : buat para jobseeker, keep fighting and never surrender ^_^