MIRACLE

something i learnt just now :

God always see.. God always know.. so never worry on anything we have done our best at. it's natural to let everything flow smoothly, then just see the effect a few time later :)

that is a good point i learnt today through life process.

memulai aktivitas cuti kerja sehari dengan positive matters. definitely satisfied enough to know i've accomplished my missions :)
aku melanjutkan kegiatan hari ini dengan berangkat kuliah (which i was a bit lazy, admit that!). kuliah sore ini : teori sosiologi 2 (teori kritis & postmo). well, what the hell are they so i have to pay full attention?? perhaps merely to get good mark (admit this too!). i love learning new things, including sociology, but this course is shockingly awful for me. the chaos of thinking ruins my settled understanding of life and its friends. i should have to be an open minded girl. it will distinguish me in the childish version and me in the mature form ;)
see.....














around 2005.. innocent face











now... more mature (hope so!!!)





the "around 2005" me is absolutely the childish one.. afraid of changes.. have no courage to be different n try new challenge.
and the "now" me explicitly exhibits me in the mature way (hopefully.. *sigh*).
yet, i'm still afraid of something i don't recognize well, but this fear won't be great barrier for me.
DONE MY BEST & NEVER GIVE UP : cliche moto but works! and i just undergo another miracle just by practising those to my ordinary life in recent years.
MIRACLE.. yup miracle, it can be said like that.
miracle, here, not always mean something big & amazing. it could be as simple as my simple prayer to God. that's it. but it's more than enough.
keputusanku untuk resign is (no doubt) the righteous mistake :P. i write "RIGHTEOUS MISTAKE" for it is not fully CORRECT, cuz some still think this decision is WRONG, but i myself have the privilege to make up my mind n take control. then, the others will just say "okay, that's your life. just take care of it" [even my parents told so :( ].
so... the term righteous is to impress that i myself is the one and only who decide & take a single control over myself.
now, i find myself smiling in front of my lappy, grinning, not sobbing anymore, no sorrow, no longer desperate. all because of the MIRACLE. don't think of such big thing. this is just the answer to my doubt, my hesitation lately. and i finally am aware of God's power to show it, slowly but sure.
dan disinilah diriku mulai mencari tema untuk artikelku (well, not kinda big publishing, but amazingly i love it soooooooo much!! :)) )

the article's waitin' for me...... siiiyaaaahhh
nice days.. God bless you all ;))