FUCK*** tired

how can i just said to my parents that i'll leave my school, for the sake of trial n error?
i wanna cry.. my mind is overloading. it can't stop making some noise and i can't stand any longer.
God.. i know i've been too far away from you & it's wrong. forgive me.
now i messed up everything and ended into waste basket; money, time, energy....

you know what.......... i'm fuckin' tired..............